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Feb. 16th, 2005 @ 06:50 pm Food Diary
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: The Glory of Love (Newfound Glory cover)
I really like eating breakfast every day. Even if it is at the butt crack of dawn, the company is superior.
Anyway, it seems like I only have something worth logging onto this silly thing for about once halfway through every month. This makes me sad, and thus it is henceforth my food journal. What and where I ate with whom at what time (approx.).

BREAKFAST:
7:45 am
w/my RA Josh and a whole slew of other RAs (a 7:30 towers RA meeting got out I think)
I had:
-4 toaster hashbrowns w/ ketchup
-3 biscuits drenched in gravy
-half a plate of scrambled eggs (w/ ketchup)
-2 glasses of water

Josh comment #1: "Jeez. You eat like it's your job, Kati."
#2: "I have never seen anyone eat so much on a regular basis in my life."
Also, talk about books.

LUNCH:
1:30 p.m.?
w/Snayumms and Lissa and RJ and some random kids who didn't talk much.
I had:
-1/2 cup of cottage cheese
-2 glasses of water

Convo: Mostly about Derek being a creepy shit. Surprise of the day, Snay is in my Psych class... who knew? Well, at least now I have a less creepy psych buddy than Jay.

DINNER:
5:30 p.m.
w/ Josh the RA, Shane, and of course, Lissa.
I had:
-2 pieces of cheese pizza
-a lot of french fries w/ketchup
-half a plate of scalloped potatoes
-a dish of cheese ravioli in tomato sauce

Convo: A lot of ridiculousness. About me, Lissa, Shane, everyone. Somehow the 'are there cops' story came up. Lots of laughing. Josh promised to find me a copy of Nine Stories (J.D. Salinger) to read. I think I am going to lend him Blindness.
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Jan. 13th, 2005 @ 05:09 am God?
It's a little bit disturbing to me (and should be to everyone else) when I start thinking about this. I am so selfish. I know that God has to take people. It has to happen. Everyone that is born has to...well, be UNborn, i suppose. There would be no balance otherwise. And the afterlife thing... I am convinced that somewhere out there in the great black sky, there has to be other conscious life. So if life-forces are constantly passing on, either the universe has to be constantly expanding to make up for this, or energy has to be recycled.

Right now I am okay with the fact that I have to be recycled. It's just something Abby brought up. That it is conceivable that we are recycled again into our own mothers' wombs and born again to live out the same life again over and over. Mine hasn't been to incredibly awful, I know that. I'm doing okay. But there are people out there that I am very close to that I would never force into such a thing. People who have had such terrible pain, fear, suffering in their lives that all they deserve is the most intense peace possible. I am very upset by this right now, but I've slept three hours out of the past 73, and maybe I am not thinking clearly.

I love you Jonny. I messed up, and I know you won't ever see this. I wasn't a good friend to you, but I hope you still know weare friends not till the end, but forever... at least I hope you feel that way too. I'm so messed up over this Jon. You are such a good person, it isn't right that you are hurting this way. It isn't right that someone like you is being cut short and awful, terrible people are living on and on. I know this sounds rash, but I know that I deserve life less than you do. I want it to be me. I want you to have mine. Take it. Please. Jon.
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Dec. 14th, 2004 @ 05:14 pm hmmm
I've been so busy! I get to go home tomorrow for quite some time and I am ecstatic about that! I am in love and I love it! Oh, and check out my face book! ( I know, I know, I'm a loser)
-Kati
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Nov. 17th, 2004 @ 05:49 am Hmmm.
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: Coldplay - Yellow
Just for the record, Pat and I had another of those fabled 'deep' conversations about our unbelievable relationship on Sunday night/Monday morning. He said a lot of things that really really touched me. He said that he is amazed by how much of his shit I put up with. He meant it. I said that I don't know what he means... and I don't, but I'm sure my friends could tell me just exactly what he is talking about. They always seem very critical of him. A few have said that he isn't good enough for me and I would just like to say FUCK YOU to all of them. In the friendliest way possible of course, seeing as you ARE my friends.

I can't remember too many details of that conversation. We were both very fucked up on unnamed substances. I have realized once again that I would give anything to never have to say goodbye to that man, and I am going to start giving it all up right now. I should have started a long long time ago, but I didn't and I can't change that now.

One other thing that I can remember with enough detail is that he said he behaved in the worst way he possibly could at the beginning in order to see if I would stick with him through anything. And that he is confident that I can and will.

I am such a piece of shit.

TO THE MISSING PUZZLE PIECE IN MY LIFE. YOU FINISH THE PICTURE #2.

Kathleen Rose Moore: Don't ever forget exactly what you are jeopardizing when you take risks. Don't.
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Nov. 16th, 2004 @ 07:57 am Hurray!
Current Mood: peacefulpeaceful
Current Music: Flogging Molly - Drunken Lullabies
Yes, yesterday was a shit day involving a drive home as well as two exams. However, I got to eat in the cafeteria, I got three cheeseburgers out of it all, and a friend of mine gave me the gift of cigarettes in return for a favor I did him last week and forgot about. Today I have to do a whole bunch of crap for English class, but oh well. Maybe it will be fun! (Right)

On the upside, I am in love, I am not yet in withdrawl from his presence, and I got eight hours of sleep last night, which is incredible because it hasn't happened in such an efficient way in a very long time. I am going to go to breakfast, take a shower, watch the South Park movie with subtitles on to figure out what Kenny is saying, and then work my ass off on a term paper. Hurray.

Oh yeah, then I am going to pretty myself up and go with a friend to get a job because his boss told him that they need an attractive, personable girl for sales, and once again, I am owed a favor. Goodness, does it ever feel nice to have good Karma.
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Nov. 11th, 2004 @ 07:41 am Oh God
Current Mood: listlesslistless
Current Music: Nelly ft. Tim McGraw - Over and Over
I watched 'Saw' last night, which I would call tonight, but I'm still not asleep. And I am such a fucked up person. That is all I can say about that now or ever, but I am a horrible, awful person. If that moral vigilante guy were around, I would be Locked in an electrified chain being told to either saw off my foot within three hours and escape or be killed too. Shit. Maybe there should be a guy like that around to punish people.
-Betty
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Nov. 9th, 2004 @ 06:36 am This Weekend Sucked... Well Monday Anyway.
Current Mood: annoyedannoyed
Current Music: Dashboard - Vindicated
I tried to stay at school. Really, I did. I was here for Friday night. Mel hitched a ride home with Tommy and I was utterly alone. It was a nice change for awhile, I have to say. I love her to death, but I am always craving Kate time. Longtime friends will have known this before reading it. And I slept in Saturday morning with a few friends over. It was nice.
But then come the phone calls. Matt and Lisa and Cliff and everyone else not worth naming are at a party at Laura's? Rob misses me? PAT is throwing an 80-person-guest-list kegger? When was the last time I missed an Abouzahr event? So I de-scrubbed myself in less than half an hour, got in my car, and drove two hours to milford to stop in at Laura's naturally. And then the other 40 minutes to Pontiac to Patrick's... even more naturally. And who was going to bring Blondie back if not me? She hitched a ride down without securing one back!
Laura's was great... I had a confusing moment there with Matthew, and everyone thought I was on Speed, but all in all, a good twenty-five minutes. Pat's was great too, even if all the girls were annoying him trying to make him act lovey-dovey cutesy to me. I snuck my fair share of kisses and just all of the girls wanted to have a conversation about PAT being in love with ME. It's funny, because I didn't bring this up a single time. They were just gushing about how he won't look at other girls and blah blah blah so on and so forth. Surprisingly, it made me feel warm and fuzzy inside. Me and some other people did kah on Sat too. I didn't even get drunk after that... not really anyhow. I must say, I did indulge. So of course we slept in on Sunday. He didn't have to work! And of course neither Mel nor I wanted to leave until Monday after good Sundays with our wonderful boyfriends. So I planned on picking her up circa de 3:30 right? I told her to be ready and waiting right? After all, I was saving her ass, since she isn't 'supposed' to come home without her parents knowing and securing a ride and all.

OF COURSE she was still in bed with Ryan when I got there on time. Of course they had to take half an hour just sitting up before contemplating getting shit in the car. Of course that turned into Ryan going over the fight(s) he got into with his parents this weekend... Of course that turned into several fresh fights with them that Mel HAD to stay for. Of course that turned into waiting around for Ryan to decide whether or not he was going to come stay the week with us AGAIN or not. Needless to say, we didn't leave until 5:45 p.m. or so. I was PISSED off. VERY PISSED. I had to be at lecture at 6. Mel has that class with me, but she doesn't are if she misses if Ryan is involved, right? So I missed lecture, even speeding. To top it all off, I got all the way back to Mount ShitHole going 20 over and got a ticket for 5 over in town. Fucking awesome. I did get to Pizza&Porn eventually, and got the credit and all. So i guess who cares. I told my mom about the ticket too, and she isn't mad or anything. I guess it's alright. I am NOT picking Mel up at Ryan's anymore. She can get her own damn ride to Pat's house and if she isn't on time I'm leaving without her. This has happened every time I've gone to pick her up at Ryan's, which has been every week since mid-August. I'm sick of it, even though I love them both to death... I don't like being walked all over. Look at me, justifying my behavior to myself even though it is completely rational. Jeez. Anyway, the SUNSHINE is coming in all pink and such, and it is time for me to read me some Pride and Prejudice and fall asleep hopefully.

Peace.
-Betty
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Nov. 2nd, 2004 @ 08:41 pm tuesdays
Auto response from feroshiss: Okay you mean-faced people! I couldn't sleep because I-don't know why but it is cold outside of my bed and you were all away and Tuesday is my day off anyhow... so SUCK IT. I am now going to snuggle into my warm comfy bed and attempt to read a book, which will probably turn into sleeping all day, ignoring all phone calls and doing absolutely nothing productive.

DrSmooth8417: i was going to say something to you about being the only person not idle or asleep when i was up at 6:45 for my lab today. If there were a prize for that, you would win.

Silence Distance: That's gotta be the best-planned day ever, you enjoy yourself. :-*

_matt_
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Nov. 2nd, 2004 @ 09:03 am (no subject)
1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME: (Name of first pet + Street you live on): Bonnie Washburn

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (Name of your favorite snack food + Grandfather's first name): Cherry Wilmer

3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME: (First word you see on your left + Favorite restaurant): Marlboro Klancy

4. EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS: (Favorite Spice + Last Foreign Vacation Spot): Clove Cozumel

5. SOCIALITE ALIAS: (Silliest Childhood Nickname + Town Where You First Partied): Greenbean Milford

6. "FLY Boy" ALIAS (a la J. Lo): (First Initial + First Two or Three Letters of your Last Name): K. Moo

7. ICON ALIAS: (Something Sweet Within Sight + Any Liquid in Kitchen): Caramel Coffee

8. DETECTIVE ALIAS: (Favorite Baby Animal + Where You Went to High School): Birdy Milford

9. BARFLY ALIAS: (Last Snack Food You Ate + Your Favorite Alcoholic Drink): Twizzler Jack-Straight-Up

10. SOAP OPERA ALIAS: (Middle Name + Street Where You First Lived): Rose Washburn

11. ROCK STAR ALIAS: (Favorite Candy + Last Name Of Favorite Musician): Crunch Oberst
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Nov. 2nd, 2004 @ 08:17 am Surveys When You Still Can't Sleep
Current Mood: awakeawake
Current Music: Usher - You've Got It Bad
So easy to become addicted, no?

1. PICK ONE OF YOUR SCARS OUT, NOW HOW DID YOU GET IT?
1/2" jagged line over bridge of my nose... How not to walk through a garage door.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? Neon green, yellow, and orange paint... A yellow child's calculator, a yellow children's stprybook, a green children's storybook, an orange antiqu map of the great lakes, a gift bag with neon smileyfaces and flowers... a few notes from friends in original folded presentation... and the list goes on.

3. WHAT IS/WAS YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE? Being eternally lost in a seemingly familiar place full of strangers and evershifting relative location.

4. WHAT DO YOU DO TO EXERCISE? Metabolize energy doing everyday tasks... such as sitting and breathing and blinking all at the same time.

5. GRAPES OR WATERMELON? grapes. if they're green.

6. WHAT IS THE WEIRDEST THING YOU HAVE EVER DONE? Had sex in a fast-food resaurant.

7. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU STARTED FILLING THIS IN? Looking at someone else's Live Journal where I found this.

8. DO YOU OWN ANYTHING LEATHER? Many things. I also EAT cow-product.

9. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ON SOMEONE? Tone of voice.

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? No.

11. COULD YOU EVER SEE YOURSELF MOVING FROM WHERE YOU ARE NOW? I hope so. This dorm room is sort of cramped to live in for life.

12. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG OF ALL TIME? Autumn Leaves

13. WHAT ATTRACTS YOU TO SOMEONE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? Pheremones? Well I suppose it has yet to be proven, but I'm pretty sure. Girls go crazy for AXE.

14. SUNRISE OR SUNSET? Sunset.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT? Starbuck's. Or a keg party.

16. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF GOING FOR YOUR HONEYMOON? Mexico.

17. CAN YOU PLAY AN INSTRUMENT? Not really. But my parents spent a fortune trying to make sure I could play any number of instruments. Poor kids.

18. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE? Not fluently.

19. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)? I've been receiving gifts from boys for a very long time. It would be highly difficult to say. My guess would be a flower or chocolate or a Valentine card of some sort.
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